obviousbliss (obviousbliss) wrote,

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the cat's out o' the bag!

My dad called me..
we got into a long conversation about just why exactly I am in Red Deer. I am such a horrible person. I put my parents, two people who love me more than anyone in the entire world put together, through shit every single day.
I want to stop.
I don't want to be a spoiled brat anymore.
I want to do things for other people, I want to be nice, I want to be considerate. I want to be that person that everyone goes to when they are feeling upset. I want to be ther person that listens and helps people. I want to change.
Sometimes I wonder how I've made it this far.
How I managed to get a great guy,
great parents,
and great friends.
The way I act everyone should have already rejected me,
but somehow I squeezed thorugh the cracks.

I am determined to get in shape
To become a whole different me.

To become happy

  • sigh

    "he loves you" they all shout in my ear. But I know, I know. I know I know I know. And I love him too. I just can't believe it. I cannot believe…

  • insite

    I wish I could have it.

  • iknowiknowiknow..

    but sometimes I feel like you don't want to talk to me. You're always at work, and when you're not at work you're practicing/making your…

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