we got into a long conversation about just why exactly I am in Red Deer. I am such a horrible person. I put my parents, two people who love me more than anyone in the entire world put together, through shit every single day.
I want to stop.
I don't want to be a spoiled brat anymore.
I want to do things for other people, I want to be nice, I want to be considerate. I want to be that person that everyone goes to when they are feeling upset. I want to be ther person that listens and helps people. I want to change.
Sometimes I wonder how I've made it this far.
How I managed to get a great guy,
and great friends.
The way I act everyone should have already rejected me,
but somehow I squeezed thorugh the cracks.
I am determined to get in shape
To become a whole different me.
To become happy